I’m going to keep this brief, but I felt the Lord compelling me to share a little something regarding Elias’s surgery and our family’s current status.
If you’re familiar at all with HOPE4Hipsters, especially for the past 7 months, the Arnold’s have been on an atypical “faith adventure.”
Back in March, I willingly quit my job. No more:
- Good, consistent paychecks
- Health benefits
- Retirement funding
If this craziness piques your curiosity, search “New Journey” in the blog section for details.
Here’s what I’m learning, and this is why I waited so long to pursue a dream in the first place (I’m a slow mover when it comes to change):
To walk by faith requires the use of it. But I have made a life out of asking God to remove the things which reveal Himself. I have bowed at the altars of comfort, control, and convenience while putting God on the shelf.
All that said, the greatest “giant” or “mountain” I personally contend with is finances. Anybody else?
And it’s in moments like my son’s unexpected surgery that stoke the flames of doubt.
“Why would you quit a dependable, good-paying job? How stupid and selfish of you!” This is what I’ve heard in my head lately as financial challenges have surfaced: “How stupid! How selfish!”
But recently I heard another voice:
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. ~ King David (Psalm 62:5)
This is exactly what I need in stressful times. Trials drown out of the truth I already know. While in the “darkness,” I question things that were revealed to me in the “light.” I need quiet. I need solace. I need to remind myself where I place my HOPE.
I have no idea how things will come together or where this “faith adventure” is leading, but I believe that our struggle will become the site for God’s supply.
In all honestly, I do not write this because I want to gain your sympathy. I’m not throwing a pity party here!
I think others can relate to what I’m describing. We attempt to walk out what we believe, and then things don’t happen as we expect. Is God angry? Indifferent? Did we hear wrong?
In all of this, I want to tell you that you’re not alone and to illustrate that our weakness is His strength.
More to come, but for now, I will be taking a break from the blog to be more available for my family in this time. Keep the HOPE!
“Real faith isn’t just knowledge for your head, it’s courage for your heart.” ~ Steven Furtick
“The mountains melt like wax before You.” ~ Hillsong United